My nickname from when I was a kid was "Bean"...from Kathleen. Unfortunately I think of mine more as a large in the shell almond. If I get it out I could feed it to my macaw as that's her favorite treat.
OK, here's my two cents, and they might not be as nice. DSki, you felt the need to chime in and rain on our parade, then you get upset when we "gang up on you"? There are those of us that need this thread for our own sanity, and obviously those of us that don't. I would not venture to take away from your diagnosis, needs, anger, whatever, but to actually take the time to say that our thread is a waste of your time...is disturbing to me. I wonder why you feel the need to make a personal attack. My suggestion is to take a step back, take a breath, and start all over again with a new thread where we can respond to what your needs are. This thread IS for everyone, and if it's a waste of their time, they can stop reading and just move on like I'm sure others have. Some threads are that way for me...they don't hold information I feel I need.
Thank you Becknell for your enlightenment, I am new and never knew the site before and I am so happy, for my own sanity, that it's not just serious and scaring the crap out of me. Thank you guys, you are the best, I love you all.