Sometimes I feel like the guy in "Alien" at the dinner party who has a little...er..chest issue......
I have no social life, my love life is sorely lacking, and I get absolutely panicky when my grandkids come up. The 7 year old seems to have a few behavior problems and is always in trouble. Any little boo-boo- or bump sends him into a shrieking fit. The 4 year old is pretty sweet most of the time. They just don't mind anyone at all. Don't throw rocks down the driveway--the dog tries to catch them and may swallow one. Been told that 3 or 4 times a day for 3 years, yet they still do it! Don't climb in Pop's truck!! I go out 5 minuts later and there they are, in Pop's truck. I just can't handle them most of the time and feign a headache and lock myself in my bedroom. We are taking them and their Ma, my step-daughter-in-law, to the beach over the 4th of July and staying in a nice condo on the beach at Emerald Isle, NC. I love my grandkids but I am dreading the trip because of the anxiety I experience when they act up. I do not like drama and it's constant drama, drama, drama!! Maybe the doc can give me some short term anti-anxiety meds to get me through the trip so I'm not tempted to hitchhike the 400 miles home! On the upside, there is a pool and the ocean although the older one will probably scream bloody murder if a drop of saltwater gets in his eye. His little bro is real different. He falls down or off something an gets up and laughs. I'm going to get both of their little butts on a boogie board if it's the last thing I do. I'm getting them surfboards when they are ten and giving them lessons!
These feelings (wanting to whack little people upside the head with a brick) are out of character for me for sure. I have been telling Dr Love that living with constant pain for the past 14 months has driven me a little insane. Been doing research on hypo- and hyper-thyroidism and finding some of the weird sympoms I've having right in there-
excessive sweating, flushing, dizziness, insomnia, irritability, depression, isolating, trouble swallowing and feeling like there's a large lump in my throat.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore these boys, but these phases they are going through are rough on all the family, not just me. But I'm the one it affects most because loud high-pitched screaming, anxiety, and SSD do not mix well.
Thanks for reading--sorry if I was a lil ranty. I'll let you know if I get an appointment.
Capt Deb