I went to my ENT today to get the results from my MRI for a suspected AN. I'm 37 and have had progressive hearing loss in my right ear for the last three years (through 2 pregnancies and 2 bouts of breastfeeding). My results were negative, much to my relief. But, even though I won't be able to join your special group, I still felt the need to tell you how much you helped me through the last agonizing three weeks since the doctor mentioned - "well, your hearing loss could be caused by a benign brain tumor." I am of the opinion that benign and brain should not be used together in the same sentence. I was, of course, panicked. All I could think about was my little girls (who are 5 months and 3 years old). Then, I found this website. And I learned that no matter what the news of the MRI brought, I could make it through.
In general, I learned:
I needed to make sure that my MRI was with contrast - it was
Benign is good and small is good and that there are experts in AN removal
From some of you specifically, I learned even more.
Katie: From your posts, I learned that having an AN and being an incredible mother are not mutually exclusive. I probably related more to your story than any other on the board - my girls are about the ages that your boys were when your were diagnosed. You're close to my age and your love for your kids just shines through in your posts, as does your strength and resolve.
Phyl: Your big heart is evident from the way that you nuture every one on this board. Even with your double-whammy diagnosis, you reach out and give a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen. From you, I learned that even when life gives you lemons, helping others is still important.
Captain Deb: I learned from you that spunk gets you through the hard times and the good times. I was relieved to see that even if I had to have brain surgery, I could still enjoy my beloved Jimmy Buffett (Little Miss Magic is the song I sing to my baby every night - and I'm just a few miles from the Florabama - one of his original hang-outs) And, if I ever win the lottery, you can bet I'll be buying one of your paintings - they are breathtaking!
BattyPrincess: You are an inspiration to me and I'm sure to so many other people who read this board. You have been through so much, but you just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep on keeping on. You make me proud to be a Floridian!
To each and every one of you who post on this board, whether you've had surgery or radiosurgery or you're waiting and watching, you have my utmost admiration. I'm sure that there are many more people out there in cyberspace like me who lurk and read your messages and take hope and inspiration from them. Thank you so much!
Daphne
