Hi Everyone, thank you for reading this and I apologize if this is long and I start whining too much, but frankly this seems like the only place I can get some support and advise.
Years ago when I was 27yrs old I started having lots of strange ear issues that would disappear as quickly as they would come. Didn't have any symptoms till I was about 30yrs old and that's when the symptoms started staying for a longer periods, two weeks instead of days. I went to numerous doctors and they dismissed it as anxiety, I started thinking I was becoming a hypochondriac. I finally started getting throbbing in my Right ear, like a hissing noise that would happen sometimes when I went to bed, this was about the same time my father passed away, so I thought it was depression. Then one day I woke up and everything sound like it had an echo and I had fullness in my ear. I didn't have insurance at the time, and frankly didn't have insurance for long pockets due to not working while working on my degree and then on my BS degree, so I decided to wait till I graduated and got a job with health insurance. A year later I started to get ringing that would come and go and finally never left me alone. I was about 32 when I finally saw a doctor and after weeks of weird testing she said I either had Meiniers disease or AN, gave me prescription for a diuretic and told me live on a low salt diet. She also said AN are something that isn't serious, so just watched and waited (hoping it would just go away) , plus she scared me so bad about how "invasive" AN surgery is (this was 10yrs ago) so I'm hoping that the technology has improved dramatically, ran out of the office.
Fast forward 10 yrs and I've had ongoing issues, most recent is constant ringing getting so loud, tiredness, tingling on my tongue, unsteadiness, sudden dizzy spells, and what caused the recent MRI order was my history and this constant watering I started having in both my eyes 4 weeks ago, that will not go away. I'm also noticing that I'm having memory issues, and seems like things that should be easy to do are more harder...is this common, so scared I'm starting to feel incompetent and stupid. I'm a divorced mom of two wonderful children, recently separated from another partner of 6yrs (not sure if the stress made the tumor grow), currently living with my sister till I can find a job because the last job I quit because my dizzy spells were getting so bad, I was worried they were going to find me on the floor (10 hr standing job). So I'm basically feeling so low in my life right now, no job, I guess you can say homeless, spouse left me, I'm just so scared, and there is no one I can talk to.
I need to get back to work to support my kids, but now with this new worsened ear issue, should I wait to attempt getting a new job?
I had an interview last week but cancelled because my eyes were watering so bad it was hard to drive.
Feeling complete devastation....highly stressed, worried about my children, what will happen if this is serious, how will take care of them, bills, etc, so many things. I just can't believe how quickly our lives can change at a drop of a hat. Thanks for reading, I need advise, anyone in my same situation, single parent, alone and scared? Sorry so long!