I'm almost 2 years post op now. I know how you feel. I must admit that I'm finding myself talking (mainy to my husband) alot more and more about AN issues my daily struggles with my AN issues. I was complaining that much that the other day he even contacted my surgeon to say how worried he is about me - I guess that is coz I have only just started to complain - almost on a daily basis now!
As for the facial paralysis, unfortunately that is something that will be us for the rest of our lives. It affects your daily life - having to remember to have your eye drops with you everywhere you go and having them easily accessible to use. Waking up in the middle of the night having to put more gel in your eyes. I now would have to be one of the slowest eaters in the world! Me and my husband went for a burger yesterday and sure enough there I am still only half way through, 10 minutes after my husband has finished his - the poor thing eats as slow as he can and he has to sit there an try and entertain himself while Im still eating! Even choosing a seat in a resturant I always try and pick a seat where I'm not facing everyone, coz I am aware of the way I look when I eat - my eye twitches, I have to eat with my mouth almost open and sometimes have to stick my finger in my mouth to move the food around. Even when out with friends I have to be aware of the food Im ordering to ensure that I can manage to eat it - and am always trying to eat as fast as I can so I'm not still eating when everyone else is finished.
I have only just started to look at myself in photos and I still have my days when I am very aware of my paralysis. Even when passing someone in the hallway at work, I smile(try to aleast) and then always have that after thought 'I wonder what they were thinking of my half smile'. I was looking at some old school friends last night on Facebook and that upset me. The fact that I can't even give a smile - the easiest thing to do in the world, and I can't even do that, and I will never be able to that ever again, really really upsets me, just thinking of that brings tears to my eye (can't cry out of my bad eye, which in it's self makes me more upset too)!
Oh yeah - and that is just touching on the facial issues - I have not even started on the deaf issues and how that effects our daily life and routine!
Anyway just knowing that there are other people out there in the same boat makes make me feel like atleast I'm not an alien and I'm not alone. I hope it helps you too