Thank you for the kind and thoughtful responses. Over the last few days I have been focusing on the worst case; this can be depressing and a bit too comsumiing. It do believe that it is best to analyze the situaton then try to habituate the symptoms (or, perhaps, this would be called denial); this I can do when at work and when actively occupied in other ways but when I am at home, relaxed or laying in bed sometimes I really focus on what is happening to me. I will have another MRI in May then, most likely plan on having the tumor removed in the fall. From a certain point of view it is good that this is not an emergency and plans can be made, on the other hand it drives me crazy thinking of the options and potential outcomes, which this forum has provided excellent information. After the MRI in May I will get a consultation with HEI but, at this time, I am planning to procede with my Kaiser neurosurgeon in Redwood City, I have confidence in him, he has done several hundred (any comment out there).
Thanks to Jan for her comments, I will consider radiation however I would like to have it out and I understand that surgery after radiation may be more difficult.
Thanks you, LA David, for the comments; I read your comments about the carnival, if you act half as well as you write I think you are Harrison Ford. And to Jim, thank you for the comments, I agree my L eye symptoms are most likely not related to my R side VS.
And to TLC719, I appreciate your comments.
I now feel that I am out of the closet from a certain perspective. Although my hearing loss has been obvious to people at work I have been able to hide my balance problems (I think); I believe soon I will discuss this with my collegues.
Thank you all for being there.
By the way, my name is not really lugnuts and I am not into auto mechanics at this time. Lugnuts is the name of a brand of artist made cloth bags for things like groceries, gym clothes, lunch bags, etc. I tried other names when registereing but they were taken.
JD