I cannot make a decision. No decision is also not the decision I want to make, and I'm getting anxiety now over this. I keep thinking that if I have the GK, things will be a lot easier for me, but will I be kicking myself over symptoms that don't resolve because the tumor swells, etc. and nothing is out or ever will be. The ear fullness and dizziness are my worst symptoms. Same with surgery. And if something goes badly, will I be kicking myself for not doing the GK.