Hi Maraki,
Welcome to the forum from another person who really understands what you are going through. I had to have my facial nerve cut and I'm sure went through mourning for my old smile.
I was happy to be alive, then I started getting depressed, then mad, yet I knew that I was lucky to be alive without any major complications. My tumor was a bloody, medium large tumor, that was pressed against the brain stem.
It wouldn't hurt to go to a psychologist or psychiatrist to talk through things. It is completely normal to be depressed after a life altering event!
My medications keep me going
You will probably find that improvement will be noted, so slow it is though. Patience is key, and that is hard, especially since you are young and want to "get on with your life."
9 months is still short time in recovery. May take up to one year or longer just to get that energy back and to feel less tired.
Hope to hear from you some more!
Maureen