I don't see anythiing wrong with taking Xanax as long as you don't use it long term. I have been known to take an Ativan at times. I do take sleeping meds, but I have taken them for over 12 years now. However, I take them because I have an anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder that keep me from sleeping. Usually not a standard form of treatment, but my mania gets really bad without sleep. But, I must admit that the anxiety from this AN can fight my sleep meds sometimes. It stinks. I spend a lot of time during the day worrying about my AN, and I have decided that I will not think about the AN when I go to bed at night. It works sometimes ,and at the end of the day, I must admit, I am sick and tired of thinking about my AN. I am actually starting to enjoy going to sleep at night because I have given myself permission to quit thinking about the dang thing. I also think my sleeping habits have gotten better now that I have made my treatment decision. That takes a load off!!!
My GK team consists of a neurotologist/otologist, a radiation oncologist, a neurosurgeon, a physicist, and a nurse at the GK center where I will be having my treatment. I met with all of them except the physicist, and I haven't had any insurance problems because they are all on the team at the GK center where I will be going for my treatment. I don't know if you are considering radiation or not. I have no idea how surgery works team wise because I chose not to go with surgery--just a personal decision. People with small tumors sometimes have more options. Some like the idea that the AN is "out of there", but I am content with just trying to "kill" it. No matter what, you will have to be the one who makes the final decision (unless surgery is your only choice for various reasons--like location and size), and you will know what makes you feel the most comfortable once you have done your research, talked to doctors and found your "gut feeling". It is not an easy decision so don't be too hard on yourself. It stinks having an AN. At this point, I can't find anything positive about this AN except that I was lucky enough to have found it when it was small. Once I am in the clear down the road, then I will breathe a sigh of relief. Don't know exactily how you feel because we are all different, but I can say that I wish you the best and hang in there.
P.S. I found someone in my area who had their GK done by the same docs I will be using. I went to his docs for a second opinion, and I ended up changing over to them. My old AN doc was OK, but my new doc fits my personality, has more experience treating ANs, and the guy I met here on the board has really been satisfied with his results. Works for me!