Thank you so much for your very thoughtful response. I hung on every word you wrote. I really feel like I gave my holistic program the best shot I could. I was very disciplined and well-researched in my approach. Still the tumor grew. It sometimes leaves me feeling a little guilty, like I didn't try hard enough, or I overlooked some important detail. "Maybe if I just give it six more months..." I know this is just my mind rebelling against the choice I must now make. A choice which shakes my belief system that nature can heal almost anything if one's approach is scientific and disciplined. I've struggled with feelings of defeat the past week. I'm mostly taking this in stride, but all the "what ifs" won't leave me in peace.
Your post has helped give me the peace and resolve I was seeking. You are the only person I know who also tried a holistic therapeutic approach to treating this specific type of tumor and with the same dedication, scope and intensity as I. Not to say there aren't other people out there who have also tried the same, but you are the only one I'm aware of who has. Hearing your story gives me peace of mind, knowing I did what I could and that trying another six months of the same approach probably wouldn't yield any better results. Now, with my tumor growing, and growing at a relatively fast clip, it is time for me to give western medicine a go.
I, too, am really glad I had a chance to give the natural treatments a try. Otherwise, I would've always wondered if I could've reversed the illness myself but gave up without trying. (And because of the program, I have definitely become healthier in all other regards... besides this one nasty growth.) Now I know that CK is the right path for me. Your message was exactly what I needed to hear, as I was planning on scheduling my CK treatment tomorrow (for sometime in July).
Thank you so much again for your support, Kelli.