Oh yeah, sloxana, we can all relate to scared, confused, panicked, and wanting to crawl in bed, assume the fetal position. turn the electric blanket up to 9 and not come out til the bad dream is over!!
Unfortunatly, the reality is we've all had to learn to deal with what has happened to us. You are lucky your ENT found out your problem so quickly....many of us have been misdiagnosed or it has taken quite a long time to get diagnosed and then treatment.
My doctor was a neurosurgeon but he loves working with the big machines
, so he helped to co-ordinate my treatment via Gamma Knife with Dr. Bader who is a radiation oncologist and who is on staff at Gamma Knife Center of Oregon. Gamma Knife is a machine that delivers the precise radiation beams to the tumor and that kills the darn thing. There are other systems that basically do the same thing, just called something different....CyberKnife, Proton beam, Liniac.....etc. It's a new world out there, medically speaking.....and often invasive surgery isn't necessary to accomplish the same thing...tumor death. So...take another deep breath...and learn about your options. We shall support you, no matter what you choose to do.
You'll find a lot of answers to your questions here, and also some great people who are very happy to support you as you travel this unexpected journey you are about to take. Know that many people have had this, gotten treatment, and went back to their lives fairly unscathed. Don't let some of the bad experiences that you may read about on here upset you. As with any medical problem...there are people who have complications and not such wonderful results, but there are many more who go about their lives with only minor symptoms. The most common is some sort of hearing loss in the AN side, from minor to total, and it's only the lucky few who don't have tinnitus.
I do welcome you to our exclusive club, although I'm sorry you had to join. I wish you the best of luck with your eventual treatment and healing.
Sue in Vancouver WA USA