Thank you everyone for your kind words,
I haven't scheduled the surgery yet, but Dr. Hitselberger said it needs to be within the next few months. I decided long ago that when the time came I would have translab and get the Auditory Brainstem Implant, so I know that I will be completely deaf for the two months after surgery before the ABI is turned on. I know that I will survive the hearing loss thing. I have already seen my father and brother go through it. My brother did get an ABI last February and is doing well with it. I am praying for similar results.
I have had some time to work through the idea of this since my diagnosis five years ago. And, like Cheryl, have really tried to treasure sounds of all kinds. I was a middle school and teacher, but I have retrained and am now the librarian for the same school. I will miss music, though. It's especially frustrating because my hearing is nearly perfect - I have 100% speech discrimination, but the tumor is too big and there is too much compression of my brainstem.
I don't mean to complain....sorry for that.
Thanks again for your support. I'll let you know how things progress.