Actually, I am sad to say, I think I just have fear of going forward at all. How do you get the courage?
In 1894, Mark Twain wrote: "Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear".
Many years later, actor John Wayne put it another way: "Courage is being scared to death... and saddling up anyway".
What these aphorisms are saying is that there is always some risk in our decisions but the necessity of taking the risk must surmount our fears. When choosing a doctor to perform AN surgery, the risk is intensified. That means our courage to make a decision and trust that decision must be intensified. Outside of death and taxes, there are no guarantees in life and certainly no guarantees in AN surgery outcomes. However, many AN surgery patients do just fine. I'm one of them. I depended on my spiritual faith and a very experienced neurosurgeon to get me through the surgery (and later radiation
). You may wish to use other means but the surgery must be done at some point and procrastination is not the AN patient's friend.
You will be in the thoughts and prayers of many of us as you move toward making the decision you must make. Please let us know when that happens.