My heart goes out to you -- I remember how frantic I was when my husband was diagnosed with his AN. I don't panic at all when it comes to my own health/situations, but when it has to do with Bob or our sons, well, that's a different story!!! My initial reaction when Bob got his diagnosis was to get that thing out of his head immediately. When he said he thought radiation was the way he wanted to go, I thought he was crazy!!! Research, consultations, people on this forum & time changed how I felt & calmed my fears. So, I have a few ideas you might want to consider. First of all, why don't you also send your MRI results to Dr. Chang at Stanford? He's the doctor who did Bob's procedure & like Dr. Slattery at House, he also does free phone or email consults. Maybe it will calm your anxiety some if you have two highly regarded doctors conferring on the wait & watch plan. Secondly, I don't know where you are in CA, but I know there are several very active support groups that meet frequently there. Try attending a couple. There's a person in our Phoenix group who's been a wait & watch for MANY years & is doing very well. Going to these support groups will also let you see that some people struggle with other side effects after their surgeries/radiation & wish they could have been a wait & watch, & you will receive support & valuable tips & information. Also, remember that it could be soooo much worse. Though Bob & I wish he didn't have to deal with this, we are very grateful it is what it is! If I find myself feeling down, the best medicine for me is volunteer work. If you're able to, give it a try. Helping others gets my mind off whatever it is I have going on. It's been a while since your last post, so I hope it's a sign you're not feeling as anxious about your diagnosis. Hang in there & we'll keep you in our prayers.
Judy (Bob's wife)