I might do it as early as Friday, when I can get around to a post office to securely send the actual MRI data with trackable delivery (as they requested). I find it remarkable how MRIs in some places are claimed to be 100% accurate, especially with contrast, yet such ambiguity is in my own report. Even in its medical jargon, the summarized report said it could be a schwannoma... but it was in an unusual place, lacked some characteristics typical to a scwannoma, and there was no "enhancement" anywhere but the basal turn of the cochlea (0.6cm x 0.2cm x 0.2cm), and suggested the "differential" diagnosis was labrynthitis.
The ENT I saw before and after was both expensive and unhelpful. "This might be a tumor. They grow slowly. If you have problems you have surgery or Gamma Knife. Here's a number to a Gamma Knife clinic." (I don't have even a hundredth of the amount Gamma Knife cost). "Usually, people with these tumors live normal lives." Then he showed me the door and asked my paying friend for his check.
I suppose I'd like to know what road I need to go down: simply letting go and accepting the hearing is gone forever but it's not a tumor, or that it is and I have to plan long-term on how to deal with it and hopefully get rid of it.
So, on a wing and a prayer as the saying goes.