Welcome. Sorry you have to go through this, but happy to tell you that you'll survive! I completely understand the overwhelming feelings when you first find out (went through them all.......scared I was going to die, scared my personality would change, angry that I was 'chosen', frustrated at why something so HUGE and not something minor to be 'tested' with.....you get the idea). The most emotional and difficult time for me was after diagnosis and during the 'research' phase. Everyone and every specialist seemed to have a different opinion on what should be done. The decision is a very difficult one, but I'm hoping that once you meet a neurosurgeon or specialist that you trust, you'll know. If/when that happens, you feel more confident with your decision and can move forward with whatever it is, in a more peaceful way. All of your energy will be focused on getting through it, and not spent tossing and turning the different options and outcomes around in your head. I really hope that happens for you soon. I'm a similar age as you (36) and just went through this 4 months ago. I'm happy to report that life is back to normal completely.
Good luck. Yes, glad you found this forum, it's a wealth of information and knowledge.