ConnieJ -
Waiting for your surgery date is stressful enough without the added things you are going through; I wish I could somehow alleviate them.
As a postie, my advice to you is take things as they come. It's very hard to predict what to expect post op and worrying about what could possibly happen can just stress you out. It's been said a million times on this forum, and I concur, that everyone is different. It's good to be prepared for possibilities, but try not to spend too much time worrying. Try to find something that will put your mind at ease and relax you. I know it's easier said than done, but try to give yourself permission to just let go.
To my family and close friends, I'm a well-known control freak. Before my surgery my younger brother told me that it was very important to "release control" and it was the best advice I received. He likened this release with taking a cross-country airplane trip. In his reasoning, you've booked the flight, you're on the plane, the pilot is in charge, and it's your job to sit back and take the ride. You have no control over what God or the pilot is doing; you just have to trust them to get you to your destination. Kind of a strange comparison, but I understood what he was trying to say. So, in the days before my surgery, I focused on my comfort level with my doctors and adopted the position that things were out of my hands and in theirs. Before my procedure started I told those present that I was putting my trust in them and that I was sure they'd do their best. In fact, the last thing I said before the anesthesia hit me was "I'm releasing control now". Everyone got a chuckle out of that, but I fell asleep with peace of mind and a smile on my face. The day I was released from the hospital my brother sent me a beautiful floral arrangement and on the card he told me that now I could "officially take back control".
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Good luck,
Jan
