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AN Community => AN Community => Topic started by: Taylor on March 11, 2007, 10:40:54 am
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So it's my birthday today....
One more year away from the surgery yet one year closer to death
and one more year i have to relive "IT" for the people that know some or the wrong of the story
now people i haven't met before are starting to come into the picture... which is strange cause i mostly hung out with people that knew everything
the people that knew what i was like BEFORE...
wild
crazy
funny
just trying to be a happy kid
and i was
i look back at it now and i took everything for granted
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now i'm just a quiet shy girl who always seems sad
and i am
sometimes i think it's one hell of a dream
my poptart got stuck in the toaster tonight
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Hey Taylor/ Birthday Girl: Look at this post under AN Community,
you silly rabbit..
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Happy birthday, Taylor. I'm amazed at your strength and courage. Hope this next year just gets better and better for you.
You could type of a card with all the pertinent information to give to new people that you meet. Wonder how they would react. :-)
Jean
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Happy birthday, Taylor! You are an amazing young lady! Someday you will remember this AN thing as a bad dream because human body heals over time, it just takes longer than we wish. Best wishes to you!
I hope you do something special on your birthday!
Eve
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Happy Birthday Taylor. You have many more that will better. You did have to grow up quickly and face the fact that life is not fair but we only have it to live just once. Know that all of us posting here are with you in your trials and it does help to post and listen to what others say. It does give me a lot of insight to how I feel and know that others are facing the same trials. Hang in there.....tomorrow will be better.
Jean
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)
Hang with the intelligent ones. You can still have fun and in the long run......being with the smart people will support you where you need it, the most. You shall live a successful and full life. The other is just shallow anyway. You have discovered real life sooner than most people your age. You can still be young and sophisticated at the same time. You will have a better life and go much farther.
We all wish you the best and the best for us, too.
Take care and have fun,
Palace
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Happy Birthday, Taylor !
Our whole family wishes you all the best. Hang in there. Stay positive...be patient. You're gonna make it and you'll come thru this stronger and smarter. We support you...we care about you. Never forget the Taylor, Chelsea and Chris club. Noone wanted to join that club but you guys were all-stars last year. You were all so young and brave. You have conquered more than most kids your age and you deserve so much credit. Wow, what a year it has been for you. You're an all-star !! So amazing...
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Happy Birthday Taylor. I am glad to see you on here again. I have been out of it cause of headaches and ear pain. You are a very smart girl and I know that you have problems now . But I look at it this away. Lord help those that make fun of others.I hope that you have the best Birthday ever :D
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Happy Birthday Taylor,
I just wanted to wish you the very best. My daughter Meagan is 25 and had her tumor out Jan 3rd. She feels the same things as you do and I tell her how brave and how strong she is. You are brave and strong too. Take care,
Maureen
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Happy birthday kid!
I can't imagine what it would have been like for me to have gone through all this when I was your age. Stay strong and keep up the good work in school!
Paul
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Hey Taylor,
Happy B'day and good luck for your future..I am 22 yrs old and can feel how you feel..sometimes we feel this tumor has taken our youth away from us (how i wish it had occurred 10 yrs from now)..we are energetic and strong by age..but disabled in some ways..I had always been a witty converser and liked by all the people whom I met...now, I sometimes get afraid to start conversaton with new people and make frens...but i have discovered another side of life...that coping with change is the most important thing...many things happen in life without our choice...accepting these changes with "smile" (if we can smile, no silly, smiling with heart) is the true happiness.
Robin
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Happy Birthday to you / Happy Birthday to you,...
It sounds like everybody has pretty much given you their best wishes and support, but let me add mine to your very full basket. You'll get through this, and all will be fine. Keep your chin up and be proud of the fact that you are a survivor, somebody that has faced down adversity and won. You're strong, you shine; people will see that and be drawn to you. Always remember your fight, because you had an AN and you kicked it's a$$. You rock, and that's the truth.
-Steve
PS Don't go jamming a butter knife into the toaster after those stuck poptarts until you first unplug it. Speaking as an electrician, you don't want to do battle with alternating current. ;D
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Hi Taylor--I visited your post a few times and each time wanted to say something but couldn't think of anything original or helpful because I can imagine how your life has turned upside down and a young person shouldn't have to deal with all of this... Tough enough at my 50-something age... I try to remember that I am thankful this didn't happen years go as surgery outcomes weren't so great.. You will do fine with whatever further treatment you need--and you have learned (unfortunately at a young age) that what doesn't kill you will make you stronger and really gives you a whole new perspective on life... So truly hang in there as the sun will come out tomorrow... Take care--Mary from MA
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Hi Taylor,
Happy belated birthday.
It's not easy for any of us but at the end of the day, it comes down to whether you want this thing to beat you or are you going to beat it.
I reckon you can do the latter so as you put it - SMILE, focus on the good times and go for it.
Laz
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Taylor: As someone who's "whole life and sense of ME" changed at a young age compliments of AN (I was 23) let me say girl
IT GETS BETTER, it seems like it never will but it will.
I know things will never be "the same" but there will come a time when you will be ok with all of this, you may wish it had never happened and you likely always morn the loss of "the old you" but eventually there comes a sense of aceptance as long as you let it happen.
You are in a grief reaction and all grief reactions have "phases"....denial came at diagnoses and likely your all finished with that, then there's anger, depression etc. At the end of the big mess there is aceptance. It will take a long time Taylor and there will be times when this all seems like a very distant nightmare, and times when it seems like surgery just happened.....the distant nightmare becomes more the case as time goes on.
I know no 19 year old wants to go into "therapy" but seriously consider it, therapy is most effective when it starts soon after the "problem". I went to someone about 3 years post-op and I know I should have been there much sooner, it helped greatly (I suffered post-traumatic stress disorder from all this and I had things "in check" very quickly but if I had gone sooner I wouldn't have suffered so much.
Take care and happy birthday
Kathleen
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(Taylor, you hawt ticket, happy belated... and this was moved to AN Community.... sending you MAJOR belated bday huggles! Phyl)
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Happy Birthday Taylor!
Well, sweet one, if it will make you feel better, my birthday was March 1st and it was my 61st birthday. We are fellow Pisces, swimming this vast ocean of life together: sensitive, intuitive.... well I snagged this off of a horoscope site:
The ruler of Pisces is Neptune. Its symbol represents a pair of sea horses or sea lions yoked together. They dwell in the innermost regions of the sea, which is symbolic of life after death or regeneration. The image also represents a duality, the struggle of the spiritual soul within the physical body. In Pisces, these two natures are joined, yet very much separate. This conflict is sometimes an inhibition to natural expression.
Pisces are . . . is a difficult sentence to finish. There are so many kinds of Pisces. Strange statement? Yes, because Pisceans are the most malleable of the twelve signs. They possess a gentle, patient nature, but one that is in want of molding. They can be impressed by and completely absorbed into their environment. They are in need of a container which will shape them, guide them. Without this guiding form, this rudder, they tend to drift.
If, just for fun, you want to see all of it, Taylor:
http://www.elore.com/Astrology/Study/pisces.htm
This is probably boring, but I'm going to tell this story anyway...On my 19th birthday I was living with my aunt and uncle and they'd gone on a little vacation leaving me "home alone" because I was going to school. My friend decided that she needed to come over and bake me a cake and have some friends come over. My friend was always talented in the home arts and so she made me a "cut out" cake..she cut it into pieces and made it into a swan I think it was. She covered it in shredded coconut. Looked awesome! Our friends showed up and she brought out the cake and I blew out the candles on it. Well, the coconut wasn't "glued" onto the cake very well, and coconut went EVERYWHERE. It would have made a great entry on America's Funniest Home Video's had we such a thing as video tape back in the dark ages. I was so embarrased.
Belated blessings to you and I hope this year brings joy to you. :)
Sue in Vancouver USA
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And a belated happy birthday to Sue.
Laz
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And I thank you, Laz. My husband said, "Hey, next year you can get Social Security!" I told him he just married me for my money. ;D
Doesn't seem like it was that long ago that I had that 19th birthday. Actually, now that I think about it...I think it was my 20th birthday with the cake incident. Oh well....doesn't matter. 19th, 20th.. somewhere in there. Now the 21st, I remember. Hawaii. Beautiful pikaki 5 strand lei that my folks gave me and I wore it all day to work and I got such a headache because they are the most fragrant flowers!
So I want a recount! Where did the last 40 freakin' years go? Huh?
Taylor, baby.....keep a journal, for Heaven's sake. Write it (your wonderful positive life) down. Savor every minute. Enjoy life. Don't let any of this AN garbage get you down. Find your Bliss! Visualize your goals and do all that positive stuff Oprah tells you to do. Power of Positive Thinking kind of stuff. Do yoga. Find your inner calm. Find a good person to love and who will love you back. Be kind to children and animals. Read good books. Surround yourself with decent, loving people. Learn something new. And when 40 or 50 or 60 years have passed, and believe me, they will pass...Remember when you were just 19 and you were starting to live your life. I hope you will be sitting there, in your new condo on the Moon surrounded by your loving family, gazing back on the Earth and thinking..."Wow, that was a fun ride!"
Sue in Vancouver