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Title: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 23, 2008, 05:02:01 pm
Hi all -
Let me start by saying that my surgery is scheduled for the day after tomorrow.  Yesterday I got an e-mail from Dr. Choe (my wonderful  neurotologist) telling which building and floor I needed to report to at Mt. Sinai on Friday.  This was good news because I wasn't sure exactly where I was supposed to go once I got there and Mt. Sinai has several buildings.  Today I got a call from Dr. Chen's assistant (he is the neurosurgeon) telling me to go to a different building a block and a half away from the building Dr. Choe mentioned.  When I questioned Dr. Chen's assistant she was very insistant she was right.  I called Dr. Choe's office and have not yet heard from them.  I've sent Dr. Choe an e-mail and hope to hear from him tonight if for no other reason, letting me know he or his assistant are on top of things.  It's amazing how little is took to shatter the calmness I was feeling. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!  There, I feel a little better  Has this ever happened to anyone else and if so what did you  do?

Wendy, Trying to breathe in NYC

Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: yardtick on July 23, 2008, 05:06:00 pm
Wendy,

Breathe!!!  Did any of your Drs give you a mild tranquiler?  Worked wonders for me.

Anne Marie
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 23, 2008, 05:09:07 pm
Hi Anne Marie -
Nope, no tranquilizers.  When I saw Dr. Choe and Dr. Chen a few days ago I was in my calm and serene phase which has now been rudely interrupted.  No need for tranquilizers then. 

Wendy -- Still brying to breathe
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: Debbi on July 23, 2008, 05:25:11 pm
It's okay to feel a bit like you're coming unglued.  I'd say that most of us were on a pretty thin thread 48 hours before surgery.  You'll hear from the wonderful Dr. Choe soon, I've no doubt.  Just keep breathing and remember that in 48 hours, you'll be on the "other side" in postie-land.  You'll probalby feel like poop, but you will have gotten there! 

I know you are a strong person. Wendy - but it's okay to be scared and freaked out from time to time. 

Sending you a big hug,
Debbi
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 23, 2008, 06:11:43 pm
Hi Debbi-
Thanks I usually consider myself a strong person too.  Having this happen so close to surgery has just thrown me for a loop.  My rational side knows everything will work out but my emotional side is -- I dont't know how to describe what I am feeling, maybe completely off balance.  I guess I am a control freak after all, never thought I was before now.

Wendy
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: cmp on July 23, 2008, 06:21:23 pm
Wendy--

I'm not surprised you're feeling rattled--I had pretty much the same reaction when I got bumped (3 days before my original surgery date) and the coordination between the neurotologist and neurosurgeon's offices seemed less than optimal. You're revving up for a very big event in your life, so it's natural to want things to fall into place and to feel very unsettled when something goes amiss that hadn't even been on your radar.

The important thing to keep in mind is that things WILL fall into place! As Debbi says, you'll be hearing from Dr Choe soon, and you'll know exactly where to report on Friday!

Many healing thoughts are being readied for transmission to you then!

Best,
Carrie
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: leapyrtwins on July 23, 2008, 06:36:04 pm
Wendy -

at this point, I can say with a fair amount of certainty that your surgery will come off without a hitch on Friday and that at this moment there is an OR already scheduled in anticipation of you, Dr. Choe, Dr. Chen, and various other medical personnel being in it.

This is just a communications glitch.  It sounds very similar to Anne Marie's conflicting information about local vs general anesthesia the morning of her recent surgery. 

Although it's somewhat unsettling, and definitely aggravating, it's better to be facing this today than bright and early on Friday morning.

I'm confident that Dr. Choe, or someone in his office, will be figuring this out soon and will be clarifying things for you.

In the meantime, hang in there; relax; everything will be fine.

Jan
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: mindyandy on July 23, 2008, 06:57:44 pm
I wish you all the luck and you are in my prayers. I cannot imagine the fear you are going thru right now....for all the right reasons of course. I did the radiation route....(very nerve racking also) especially since I'm in the 6month mark (swelling) arrrgghhhhh....

You will be fine sweetheart and when you all said and done let us know how you are feeling...... ;)
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: lori67 on July 23, 2008, 08:45:23 pm
Wendy -

I'm sure they'll get you where you need to be.  Take a deep breath.....you'll be okay.

I did quite well remaining calm up until the night before my surgery.  Two of my sisters were flying in from Jersey to help out with the kids - they were supposed to get into Nashville around 9pm.  Their flight out of NJ was delayed, so they missed their connecting flight in Altanta and couldn't find another flight out until the next morning - when I was supposed to be knocked out in an operating room!  I had no idea what I was going to do with the kids at that point.  We had only lived here for a little while and didn't really know anyone I could ask to take a 4 year old and a 9 month old.  I was a mess!  I wound up going to my neighbor and asking if there was any way she could help - her daughter offered to skip her college classes that day to help me out until her Mom got home from work that evening.  In the end, my sisters found a flight that got them into Nashville at midnight and since I was so wound up I couldn't sleep anyway, going to the airport to pick them up was no big deal.  I guess the point of that long story was that it all works out in the end.  I don't know how, but it does.

Hang in there!  Stay calm.  Looking forward to hearing good news!
Lori
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: sgerrard on July 23, 2008, 08:59:07 pm
Hi Wendy,

I'm sure it is just a mix up between where your "pre-op prep" and your "pre-pre-op prep" are to take place - or something like that. :)

Advanced best wishes on your surgery, too.

Hey Mindy, how much swelling are you experiencing? I notice a little arrrgghhhh in there...

Steve
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: Kathleen5306 on July 23, 2008, 09:01:25 pm
Wendy

My surgery is next Wednesday.  When the nerves hit me, I always come here to this forum where the stories and support strengthen me again.  I will have you in my thoughts all day Friday.  By Wednesday, I will be shaking in my boots and you will be up walking around in yours!  All the best for you.

Kathleen
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: leapyrtwins on July 23, 2008, 11:03:29 pm
Thanks I usually consider myself a strong person too. 

Wendy -

you don't need to "consider" yourself a strong person, because we all know that you "are" a strong person  ;)

Keep the faith!

Jan
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: yardtick on July 24, 2008, 01:16:30 am
Wendy,

You should have see me on Monday.  I was a mess.  Very emotional and restless, I was so grateful my Dr prescribed Ativan for me.  I attacked Louie as soon as he came in the door from work.  I need his arms around me.  I think it was the combination of the tranquiler and the human contact of my husband that calmed me down.  I also had company after dinner and that was a great support.  I  took a sleeping pill before bed but that was useless.

You are a strong person.  This AN just plays little games on us.  We are all heroes in my eyes.  We are so lucky to have this forum and to be able to share our experiences.  I wish I know about this place when I first diagnosed.  I was blind sighted.  You are going to be another postie, who is going to be able to offer advise to others.

As Jan said "Keep the faith".  We are all praying for you :)

Anne Marie
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 24, 2008, 05:35:10 am
Hii all,

Thanks for all you advice and good wishes and advice. I'm sure you are all right and things will work out just fine.  I just panicked a little when things went awry  I had a problem with the computer last night in the middle of trying to respond to some of your posts. After a good night's sleep -- which I was really surprised I was able to have --it must have been the two glasses of wine I had at lunch yesterday,  I am feeling a little better today.  I'm still feeling a little anxious about the mixup or whatever it is but trying to talk myself back iinto the calm serene state I was in before this happened.  I am hopeful that I will hear something this morning from Dr. Choe or his assistant.  This is going to be a very busy day for me.  I've already packed everything for the hospital because I have grocery shopping and cleaning to do.  A couple of friends are taking me out to lunch again today -- bless my friends and family for keeping me so busy since I got back from vacation last Wednesday!  I am very thankful for all you too -- my AN family who truly understand what I am feeling

Kathleen - I know your surgery is next Wednesday and I am sure you mush be feeling a little anxious right now.  As many of my friends here have told me keep breathing, try to take one step at a time.  We are all with you in our hearts and will be sending our good wishes your way.  I should be home by next Monday or Tuesday according to my doc and will try to check in on you.  I will definitely be sending good wishes and healing thoughts your way.  I wish you the best of luck.  See you on the other side.

Jan, Lori, Carrie, Steve and Mindy--  You certainly have a way of putting things into perspective.  It really helped -- thanks.
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: LADavid on July 24, 2008, 05:17:02 pm
Wendy

If you're still up and reading.  Best wishes for a very successful surgery and a speedy recovery.  My prayers are with you.

And if you're still concerned about the surgery, don't be.  That's the easy part for you.

My best
David
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: jerseygirl on July 24, 2008, 05:59:58 pm
Wendy,

Just want to wish you one more time a great outcome tomorrow! We are all here for you!


              Eve
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: leapyrtwins on July 24, 2008, 06:09:50 pm
Best wishes, Wendy!

I'll be thinking about you and anxiously waiting for an update.

Jan
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 24, 2008, 06:15:04 pm
Hi David -
Thanks for your good wishes. This morning the information glitch that caused me to panic slightly was straightened out   I am now surprisingly calm again and not at all afraid.  I have complete faith in Drs. Choe, Chen and Bederson.  I also feel that all the research I've done and all the information I've gotten here have made me feel really prepared.  My decision was truly an extremely informed decision.  I never be readier than I am right now to do this thing.  Debbi will be posting for me so I hope she has lots of good news to give everyone tomorrow.  Thanks again.Wendy
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: wendysig on July 24, 2008, 06:26:59 pm
Hi Jan and Eve -
The snafu from yesterday was resolved this morning.  I am once again in my calm and serene state thanks to a lot of will power and a couple of glasses of really good wine!!  Thanks for your good wishes.  I feel very upbeat and optimistic and Dr. Choe told me he also has a very good feeling.  He is such a wonderful doctor and person and has recruited two first class neurosurgeons to assist him.  I feel very safe and confident that I will have the wonderful outcome I half jokingly promised.  Debbi will be posting for me and Rob will be sending her updates from the hospital tomorrow so hopefully you'll be getting some very good news sometime after 4:00.  Thanks for your good wishes.  I'll start posting myself shortly after I get home (I hope) Monday or Tuesday.

Wendy - No longer having any trouble at all breathing!
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: yardtick on July 24, 2008, 08:01:06 pm
Hey what can I say with Debbi updating us and the confidence you have in your Drs you will be back on the forum in no time at all.

All the best Wendy,
Anne Marie
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: Pooter on July 24, 2008, 08:19:36 pm
Good luck, Wendy!  Great confidence going into your procedure!  I love it!  God's speed in your recovery!

Brian
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: leapyrtwins on July 24, 2008, 10:14:56 pm
Wendy -

sounds like you're in a very good "place" right now.  Keep that calm, confident feeling, but lay off the wine for a while  :D

Seriously, I think your wonderful doctor(s) will do a wonderful job for you.  Worked for me  ;)  I think you are in very good hands tomorrow.

God Bless,

Jan
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: jtd71465 on July 25, 2008, 04:19:05 am
Wendy-

My prayers are with you today for a successful surgery.

Joe-

Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: Omaschwannoma on July 25, 2008, 05:31:25 am
Wendy,

Want to pass on to you many blessings for a successful outcome today.  Blessings also to your "team" of professionals who will perform with skill, and perfection giving you complete tumor removal with a successful outcome for you!  I look forward to hearing how you are doing as a "postie" Wendy, and don't rush anything!  Peace!
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: ppearl214 on July 25, 2008, 05:33:40 am
Wendy,

Wellness wishes to you!  Looking forward to seeing you in "PostieLand".... good luck today!
Phyl
Title: Re: I'm freaking out -- but just a little
Post by: Debbi on July 25, 2008, 06:33:18 am
By my calculations, Wendy is on her way into the OR now...

I'll start a Wendy's Surgery Update under the Community section just as soon as I hear from Rob this afternoon.  He's got his blackberry, so messages may be criptic. 

Go peacefully and come out strong, Wendy!

Debbi